My Dad crossed over exactly today 02202010 12:00 a.m. I am riding a roller coaster and really don't want to blubber all over y'all. I have been trying to keep up the last few days but couldn't so y'all will have to catch me up soon. I feel so super humbled, not to mention "genetically severed" and additionally have a smashed-sad heart.
I want y'all to know that God kept His promises to me and my Dad, I'll try to explain about it more later but I am satisfied (if you can even use the word "satisfied") even if I'm kinda ripped apart. God just continually persuades me that He is able to keep that which I've committed unto Him. And I'm very grateful and thankful. I would not be me if I did not also acknowledge here that the 2000# piano is somewhat of a lurker so I'm keenly aware of what's over my head.
To make things even heavier but sweeter, a beloved friend (my college math tutor whom I lost last in Connecticut several years ago) insistently kept ringing my phone off the hook twice yesterday and twice today. I heard her on the answering machine but just would not leave Dad to pick up the phone but I was so happy to hear her voice. Well finally after this very long day, tonight she called one more time, I mean she was not going to give up. :) I think it blew her mind when I told her about Dad dying. She sure had been an insistent cuss over the past 24 hours...I don't know about her but I'm sort of left saying "Wow" on that one. How sweet is life to do that to you? It's like that pastor J John said, "If you pray...coincidences happen. If you don't, they don't".
So we're cleaning up the kitchen right after everyone left this morning and about to cut off the lights and the bulb over the stove blew out with a pop. Neal kinda looked at me and said in my Dad's usual way "Don't forget to turn out that light!". It was funny but we both kind of said....oh hmmmm. :)
None of this probably made sense. Love y'all. OX, T
My prayers are with you, SC. May you find release and comfort in this difficult time.
SC~My sincere condolences
To you and your family for your great loss. I have no advice to give you on how best to 'deal with this'. Just know I am thinking of you and your heartbreak. My Mom keeps apppearing in my dreams...she passed in 2006. She is always happy and herself..but MY reaction to seeing her in the dreams is always very emotional at which point she always says.."if you are going to be like this..(crying, sobbing etc..upon seeing me) then I am going" so be prepared for 'contact' with your Dad. Try to get past the shock and joy of seeing him, sadness, hugging him etc... and try to have a conversation. I am working on this contact. He is and always will be with you. Cry and mourn but take heart..he is still with you and always will be.
My Dad's Obituary
http://www.legacy.com/obituaries/spartanburg/obituary.aspx?n=joe-t-boyd&...
I don't know if this is any condolence to you..
When my Dad passed away all four of us kids went through all the pictures and picked out pictures of my Dad throughout his life and kind of made a memory board, collage of these pictures. The people that came to his wake were full of stories, and the pictures helped jog some old memories.
His wake turned out to be a celebration of his life, although it was very hard to bear, all the people remembering him during his life sure helped.
He had children, grandchildren and baby great-grandchildren roaming around the parlor for his final tribute. I'd like to think we did him proud.
LIVE and let live.
Hugs SC thank you so much for sharing this. I have not lost my parents yet and my 50th birthday is this week. I know my time will be sooner than I want and I never used to really listen to people when they lost their parents. It was a huge case of denial and not being able to relate.
You're such a fine soul I know your dad is still hanging around watching you grow and let go.....sigh. Keep talking to us we like it and I know it helps
SC
I am so sorry for your loss. Be strong Sweetie. The weight on your heart will become less with time. I will be thinking of you and your family.
(I will say that the light blowing out is also an occurance that my Mom, and I had.)
A real friend is one who walks in when the rest of the world walks out. ~ Walter Winchell
God bless you SC
And may your father find the peace we all pursue.
I'm very sorry for your loss. But at least you were able to talk to your father and express your feelings before his passing.
Blessings to you and your family in your loss.
LIVE and let live.